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I was anticipating for a good year...

I was tellin winston that i only hope that i wun haf to attend any funerals in my family this year...

I was planning to visit her soon....

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This morning.. i was dreaming about something when my mom barged into my room...

n i my eyes just opened itself n stared at her....

I saw her muttering , i thot i was dreaming...

I was not.. i reassured myself that i was in reality...

yes i was.....

yes she's gone...

passed on... this morning....

I jus stared into space for half an hour... drained out frm the lack of slp yet lost...

All her life.... she's struggled ... to be wad she wanted... n when she finally did....

Its her time to go... but in the midst of all these sufferings.. she's brought wonderful memories to me... her courage , her persistance has brought admiration n her laughters and bubbly character has brought joy to me... If there is a next life... i hope she can be happy... n find love wherever she may be...

i couldnt really find the words to describe how am i feeling now...

I'm still in a state of shock.