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I dread the night times ..

I dread every effort tryin to get to sleep ...

I dread the inability to toss n turn ....

I dread it when I cant wash my hair properly ..

I dread the smell of my blood that still lingers ...

I dread every images that came before me everytime i close my eyes ..

I dread the nightmares that keep repeating ...

I dread the disturbed sleep ..

I dread the stinging pain in my head ..

I dread the butterflies in my stomach feeling ..

I dread it when my heart pumped faster n my palm starts to sweat each time i recall ..

I dread it when i'm alone ..

I dread it when I cant reach u ..

I dread it when I dun feel the extra TLC frm u ...

I dread it when ur not especially senstive to my feelings ..

I dread seeing my hair still falling and it hurts me..

I dread crying n no one bothers.

I feel ugly.. I feel like a freak havin to wrap my head ..

I feel scarred for life..

I hate myself.

I hate the driver.

I hate the stitches.

I hate the pain.

nobody understands.

becos im the one who is gg thru all these.